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Miss Lauren Michelle
24 November 2009 @ 11:09 am
Options for today:

1. Do the Officeworks run for next year's sparkly study materials. (Read: glitter glue, highlighters, and very little else.)

2. Go to the Pancake Parlour and ingest copious quantities of hot fudge sauce.

3. Stay at home and clean my room whilst watching Doctor Who.

*Sigh*

Option No. 3 it is.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: If I Can't Have You - Kim Wilde
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle

I have a question for you, my lovely friends.

Which of the following scenarios would leave me in a more overjoyed state?

a) The arrival of the Doctor (complete with TARDIS) in my front garden.
b) A marriage proposal.
c) Learning how to scan and borrow (while discreetly cancelling all outstanding fines) my own library books.

Oh yes. I have indeed become MASTER OF THE LIBRARY DESK. HELL YEAH.

 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Whoopi Goldberg
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
02 November 2009 @ 08:25 pm

I'm seventeen years old, and I don't know a thing.

 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
29 October 2009 @ 10:50 pm

Man is unhappy because he doesn't know he's happy.

 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: Always Take the weather with you - crowded house
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
24 October 2009 @ 09:04 pm
Things that I am tonight:

1. Exhausted.
2. Stressed.
3. Worried.
4. Fed up.
5. Sunburnt.

There are so many things that could be causing or contributing to this miserable hole in which I happen to be entrenched, and the majority of them will no longer be an issue in about three weeks. Logically, I know that this means I need to just keep my head down and soldier through it, "this too will pass" style, but it's so hard. I'm scared. I know that by the middle of November, it'll all be over for another year, but first I have to get there, and I have to get there with my future options, my relationships, and my sanity all intact. Oh, God.

Tonight, however, I'm in bed with my cat, my NCIS DVDs, the hope that it will all be okay, and the determination to make it through, no matter what it takes.

I will not let go.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Bodies - Robbie Williams
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
Some amazing/lovely things have happened in the last few days. I have even more of those such to look forward to over the next couple of weeks and then months.

Right now, though, I want to cry.

I thought I was doing it right. Don't change the rules on me. That's really not fair.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Broken Leg - Bluejuice
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
Hello, people.

This is just a quick update because I had a lovely night and am feeling particularly happy and peaceful.

Details of tonight's loveliness:

I walked home from school in the beautiful sunshine and thought, "You know who I'd really like to share this gorgeous afternoon with? Tim."

I got in the door, threw down my bag, and then called him. Twenty minutes later, I had rid myself of the ghastly school uniform and was on my way to the station. I raced down the escalators, nearly got squashed in the train doors, and amazingly, made it to Flinders Street to get the train to Tim's. There is shit scenery on the Craigieburn line, by the way, in case that is something you've always needed to know. It's very "Oh, a factory! Oh, another factory! Oh, look, another factory! Wow, it's a factory! Who would have guessed?"

Following the hideous scenery, I fought my way out of the crowded train (I didn't actually realise how crowded a train leaving the city at five o'clock would be until I got to Flinders, and then I took one look at the platform and went, "Shit.") and Tim met me at the station, and we went back to his place and had dinner and listened to music and talked and watched Arsenic and Old Lace with his family and had chocolate pudding, and then he drove me home.

I got back just before midnight, or as his dad said, just before I turned into a pumpkin.

*Exudes happiness*
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: If Everyone Cared - Nickelback
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle


Oh God I'm pathetic. I know it's awful, but it's how I feel! Ugh. Going to bed now, before I inflict any more of my sappiness on innocent people.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
20 September 2009 @ 05:33 pm
ugh.  
Another thing you should never, ever do whilst missing someone: watch Torchwood: Children of Earth. Especially not Day Four. Really, don't try it. It WILL end in tears.

On the bright side, tomorrow I'm going to see Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince again, with Jack. Yes, I know, another death scene to get through, 'cause I'm so smart, but I need to get out of the house.

IANTO. *Sobs*
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Evacuate The Dancefloor - Cascada
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
20 September 2009 @ 04:18 pm
Oh my GOD.

You can order m&ms WITH YOUR FACE ON THEM.

MY MIND = BLOWN.

Laughing way too hard right now. I'm tearing up.

I WANT SOME. With...with...who have I always wanted to eat? WITH CAPTAIN JACK'S FACE ON THEM. (Or possibly Tim's. No. Ew. Wrong, wrong, wrong.)

Who comes up with these things?!
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: Classical Gas - Eric Clapton
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
20 September 2009 @ 11:29 am
How nice it is to have woken up around ten and said a sleepy goodbye to Mum from the comfort of my bed on this sunny Sunday morning, then lain here reading and listening to music that I had the power to download because Limewire is finally bloody working for me again. It's even nicer to have had a phone call from my favourite auntie, and then made some toast and gone back to bed.

Also: I used to think that the most awesome thing I had ever heard was the fact that the guy who Mum is currently dating had a pet leopard when he was a kid. I still think that that's incredibly awesome and brilliant. But the fact that there is a ballroom in Flinders Street station is...wow. Come on, people! It's a BALLROOM inside what is quite possibly my favourite building ever! Unfortunately, it's also been closed to the public since the '70s, and requires an estimated $10 million for repairs, which the government is refusing to provide. Disgraceful, y/y? The station is (in my opinion, at least) one of Melbourne's most beautiful places, and it is an ICON. It deserves some of its hidden beauty and purpose other than a Connex-people populated hell back. And no, my championing of this ballroom that I have never seen (people don't even get to SEE it, for fuck's sake) does not have anything to do with the fact that I now want to get married there. *Shifty eyes*

Apart from those two lovely paragraphs up there, this post really has very little point, and so I have no choice but to attempt to pad it out. I shall do this by telling you that I really love the song "Classical Gas" by Eric Clapton at the moment, and also that I stayed up quite late last night, reading The Bell Jar, which turned out to be not the greatest idea. This was because whenever I read it, or even just a few pages of it, I get really heavily sad, as if something has crawled into my chest, curled up and gone to sleep, thereby weighing me down. Accordingly, I try to avoid reading it when I'm going to be talking to Tim, as depressing conversations over MSN and the phone are not the best thing to inflict upon our relationship. So I decided I was going to read it last night, because he's away, meaning I can't get him down with my Plath-induced depression. Unfortunately, this meant that I ended up feeling even worse than I usually do, because I had forgotten to consider that Depressing Book + Missing Tim = Abject Misery. I'm so smart.

Anyhow, the plan is now to get dressed, organise my DVD collection, possibly re-organise my bookshelf, and maybe make some revision cards for History, because the exam is approaching with terrifying haste.

The kitteh and I bid you a fond farewell with a condescending smile, because we know you're just not quite as awesome as us.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Whole Wide World - Wreckless Eric
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
It's these moments when I need you, and everyone you bring with you.

Unfortunately, in this particular moment, you are somewhere on the Great Ocean Road.

Fuck.

When did it start feeling like I need you by my side in this mad thing called life? When did I start turning to you before all others? When did I start feeling lost, no matter what issues we've created in our very being together, when you aren't here to help me face the other hurdles of my/our existence?

Come home.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: scared
Current Music: Come Anytime - Hoodoo Gurus
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
18 September 2009 @ 07:55 pm
An amusing little occurrence of today:

Tim and his family are away for this first week of the holidays. This is fine by me; I'll miss him, of course, but this is also the last break I'll have before I launch into six weeks of exam prep at school, and then sit my Year 12 exam. I need this time to revise and do practice exams. Anyway. Tim left this afternoon, and I thought that was it for at least 24 hours. Apparently, he wasn't thinking along the same resigned lines, because at about six, I get a call from him, telling me to call him back on his dad's mobile, because it has a landline number due to his dad working for Telstra.

We then spend a good twenty-five minutes carrying on a conversation into which his parents and sister, Laura, are constantly breaking. It was extremely funny. I like his family so much! His mum was teasing him about having spent the entire car trip so far sulking about not being able to talk to me, and Laura was just laughing evilly, and I just really wished that I was there.

It was sweet.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Show Me Everything You've Got - The Rocket Summer
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
03 September 2009 @ 06:29 pm
A rather pointless quiz. )
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
WHERE THE HELL IS MY BOYFRIEND?!

I know it's family night, and I know that a thousand random things could have happened to keep him off MSN, but...I want him. NOW.

*Sulks*
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Everywhere - Michelle Branch
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
01 September 2009 @ 01:44 pm
Guess what I got in the mail today?

*Suspenseful pause*

A statement of completion of the HPV (cervical cancer) vaccine. Oh, THANK YOU SO MUCH, paper-pushing bureaucratic fool who sent me that! Do you think I DON'T REMEMBER being stabbed in the arm with a needle not once, but THREE TIMES? Do you?!

End rant.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Breakfast At Tiffany's - Deep Blue Something
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
31 August 2009 @ 07:45 pm
The best part of 3/4 History, for me, is highlighting the shit out of every handout so that there is more fluoro than untouched paper. When stacked in a pile, as they so often are when I am trying to make sense of them, they emit a rainbow glow that both burns one's retinas and leaves one feeling remarkably cheerful and uplifted.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: 1999 - Prince
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
30 August 2009 @ 05:14 pm
Bernard: I want a drink.

Fran: You always want something. You know, in Tibet, if they want something, do you know what they do? They give something away.

Bernard: Do they? Do they? That must be why they're such a dominant global power.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle
FRIDAY!

A Friday filled with pathetic bigots it may have been, but it is still Friday, and so life is good. I am currently quite enamoured of life; I'm sitting here at my (ridiculously messy, covered in Monash course guides (yes, STILL), money, DVDs and random bits of paper) desk, admiring the gorgeous formal dress hanging in my wardrobe. I'm so glad that even on a day when I got teary from stress in History, and bitches talked shit about my friends and I, I can still look around and see lovely things and be happy.

Things that have happened/are going to happen today:

- Tim bought a car.
- There was no romantic happy ending to the movie we watched in Legal. Jack and I were disgusted. We have now decided that we have to have a chick flick night.
- We are also planning a day at court to observe the bitchy behaviour of judges. We wanted to take popcorn in, but apparently that's frowned upon.
- When playing Family Feud online, I think, and I'm sure you'll all agree with me, that when asked "What do couples exchange as part of marriage?", a perfectly good answer is "fluids". I cannot fathom why I was awarded no points for that answer. Similarly, "What is one negative consequence of sharing a bed?" = "babies". Good answer, yes/yes?
- I discovered that a number of my classmates are bigoted, two-faced bitches.
- Mum and I are now going to see Tripod. Free tickets for the win.

I must go get changed now. Au revoir.
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Pure Imagination - Gene Wilder (Willy Wonka OST)
 
 
Miss Lauren Michelle

Okay, before I get into this rant:

I am aware that the world has a long history of discrimination against people who are seen to be 'different' and 'abnormal'. I am aware that I am a citizen of a country that offers every chance and every opportunity in life to such citizens, and I am aware that because of this, such chances and opportunities are often taken for granted. I am aware that I live in a conservative suburb and therefore must make allowances for the predominantly white, well-off, middle-class people with whom I share the streets of this suburb.

BUT.

I go to one of Victoria's top public schools. A fifth of my year level was in the High Achievers class, which is supposed to contain students in the top 5% of intelligent society. We have access to a high-quality curriculum delivered by, for the most part, genuinely well-trained and interested teachers. We are the educated middle-class that has it all. We are the ones who will be doctors, lawyers, engineers, politicians, scientists and leaders in the years to come. We are the only chance this country has to become open-minded, liberal, fair, equal, and we will achieve this only by being those things ourselves.

And yet when a teacher says "transgender"...the entire room erupts in nervous giggles and a chorus of "EWWW".

It makes me sick. I know a lot about gay, lesbian and bisexual issues. I speak with knowledge and authority on those matters, but I am the first to admit that I know very little about transgender issues. I don't know which labels are politically correct. I don't know what transgender people are fighting for. I don't know the difference between transgender and transsexual. I don't know anything, EXCEPT that the disgust and discrimination shown by my classmates is not okay.

That same teacher talked about transgender people in the context of clinical "normality", as if they are weird, alien, completely removed from our place in society. He used examples that did not reflect what I believe to be the truth; that transgender people are not aliens. They are a part of our world. And it disgusts me that in an educated middle-class environment, I constantly see this hatred of whatever is deemed to be 'abnormal' by bigoted individuals incapable of understanding what it is like to be part of a minority group.

It needs to change, because nobody, not one single person in this world, deserves to struggle with gender identity in the face of society's implicit disapproval, and then endure society's hatred. It's not transgender people who need to change, it's our entire society, and that society needs to realise that open-mindedness, liberal views, understanding and tolerance will get us somewhere. And I believe that when that day comes, and we reach that place, we will never look back.
 

 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: Lift - Shannon Noll
 
 
 
 

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